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Woke on Shipt Facebook group – Apartment or Not!

So I have been working the Shipt thing, you know shopping for groceries for other people and delivery them to their home. Shipt have a Facebook group when the shopper and I guest customer share their experiences on the group. So it was post of a cart full of kitty 20 lb litter and it was a joke it was order only. However, I comment about my experiences because I did once have a simpler experiences of someone ordering a lot of kitty litter and I had to delivery it to apartment.

So I made the comment that kind of stuff happen a lot and it have happen more often at apartment when I would have to go to the fifth floor and delivery it to them and they would not tip me. And that is why I don’t accept order for apartment. I had two people response to my comment and say that I am discriminated against apartment order and say that it was lazy not to accept order for apartment.

I try to explain myself and say it is due to me having a bad back and I cannot afford to not work due to injury helping customer who would mistreat me. It have happen before and where they have taking advantage of my kindness and I would do a lot of hard labor and not be tip.

That did not stop another people from comment and saying that people in apartment are disable too and have bad back and what I was doing for judging them. So I asked you should I ignore my back problems and do apartment where I may end up injury myself because their problems mean more than mine?

I end up tagging the Admin to the group and reporting the last person comment as Harassment to the group Admin. I did have one person come to my defense and agree with me that I have the right to say no apartment due to my back problems and say that it is my free choice to do so. The post end up getting taking down most likely by the Admin team in the group. I think what it is there are people on Facebook doing this on purpose attacking people and it is Facebook bullying from the woke.

This is not the first time I have seen this on Facebook groups. I have seen this happen on several Facebook group. I believe there are a lot of woke people joining these Facebook group just to try to start drama and discourage other people from wanting to share their opinion in the group.

If you was wondering what I have been up to. I have been working the Shipt as a part time job while I work on my business. And sorry that it have been a while since I last post anything. I will be starting up school soon in computer programming. I will be going into the IT field and I plan to learn game design on my own. I hoping to do combination of my skills in engineering and art in game design and IT field. I will have more on that soon.

Super Depress Right Now

I am currently working part time jobs while I work on my business. It have been super hard. I am currently trying to get my certification in computer programmer, however, I am doing though my state. The process is super slow and I have financially having a hard time. I am trying not think so much about how my store is getting no views…

Holiday are right around the corner which reminds me how I don’t have family to support me. It just remind me how alone I am.

I have friends but I don’t know how long that will last. I mean I have been told in personal test that I am no good with interpersonal relationships. And the last few years, I have seen that. Friendship for me normally run from 1 to 3 years. On the surface, I am good but if I let my friends know too much about me then most likely they are to run from me.

Lately, I feel like I have made good friends but I am scary. I am telling them a lot and I am worry that it will come all falling apart again.

The only good thing about my depression is I til created good art, but I don’t know how long I kept this up. I really don’t want to be one of those artists that get famous after death. However, I don’t know how I can keep pulling myself up each time I fall. I think we all have a limited and I not sure what my limited is. Will my limtied be tomorrow, the next day, a year from now, or 10 years?

And yes, I have been fighting depression for years now. Some days it is worst then others. Right now, I maybe losses to it. And yes, I am having negative thoughts right now.

We Live in a Society….

I have to say I was wow… when I say the movie Joker. It left me speechless. At first it was very daunting because it felt like a prediction. I have been following the “woke” and “metoo” movements. It felt like the Joker was the spark that set off chaos. You could tell thought out the whole move that there was problems with society and it could be set off into chaos with just one little blow.

We live in a society that is very simpler to what is in the movie. Just yesterday I heard of a story where a 23 year old woman is fighting for her right to die because her mental health is so bad and she cannot handle the pain from crippling from her period. We are having more young people who are not able to handle the normal cruel world when they want to give up on living. Children are being raise being protection from the cruel world to the point, they are not prepare for how cruel it really is.

“We live in a society…

Years ago I heard of a story when 2 out 3 people deal with depression or some type of anxiety. And the media does not help with this, it make things worst with fake stories and dividing whole groups of people from others. Now we have more people believes things such as the moon landing was not real but fake. Because if you keep putting out fakes stories than people will start believing rumors and what is on the internet forms.

“We live in a society…

Also, if we think about how the labors workforce are being treating than you would see more problems. They are starting to be treating less than human. Many company human resources departments are a joke. I don’t think telling people to treat each other nicer is going to fix that. I think the problem is many people are not made for the regular workforce such as me. I am lot happier now because I am working for myself and controlling my own future.

We live in a society…

However, it is very hard to start a business when your only way of getting your name out is social media. Social media is turning more pro corporation which is making it hard for small time business owners. In fact, I have been shadow ban on Facebook and Twitter. They are shared my content less and less. I know I am not the only one having this problem, it is starting to be notice by the media. There are expect who came out and say that it is a real problem.

“We live in a society…

And if that was not bad. There is talk about a civil war may happen to the US. The extreme left Democrats in Congress are fighting with the Trumps Federal agencies over border security concerns. The last year, the Democrats have say some crazy things and the media only report “Orange Man Bad.” Like we live in some stone age period where intelligent is left out.

“We live in a society…

Oh, and the trade war with China is getting worst. It is possible that China have their hand in our money too and may have control over a US recession.

“We live in a society…

I think our biggest problem is mental health because if we don’t have adults with mental toughness than many will not be able to deal with the troubles that may come our way in the future. I believe that movie may end up being a wake up call for many. I just hope that it would do that because if we cannot handle failing a test or rejection than we are in trouble if our peaceful times come to an end.

Inktober 2019 Free Shipping

Every day of month of October I am doing Ink art mostly Halloween theme, because I really do love Halloween. Halloween is my favorite time of year. In the video below is Day 4th of Inktober 2019. In the video is a code for Free Shipping to any order over $21.00 at www.mariahargis.com.

You can follow me everyday on Twitter for a new Ink art at @hargis_maria. Check out the “Spider and Qrow” T-shirt and I also have it on a jacket perfect for Fall.

My Hardest Critic Is Me

As an artist you have to deal with criticism. However, for me my biggest critic is myself. I am very impatience went it comes to my art and I hate waiting for people to look at my art and tell me what they think. There is times I feel like I almost cannot breath due to the pressure of waiting to heard people tell me what they think.

I think it have gotten worst in past years for me. It have to do a lot with the many failures I have in my life. Such as getting an degree in Biological Engineering and never really working in my field. As well as having a divorce after 11 years of marriage with two children and losing my children in the process (which I have not seen my children in six years). I have this hidden pressure to be successful. I feel like I am trying to make up for the many failures I have experiences.

You may asked why I am talking about criticism. It is because I have to fight my own feeling that I may fail before I know the results of what kind of impact my art have on people. I was feeling so happy early today right before I release my latest chapter for Nocturnal Orphan. However, as the night went on and I got lost with my thoughts in my head that “Oh no, what if my art is not good?” “What if I did not do all I need to for the story?”

The only things that kept me from giving in to these thoughts is “what if I used this feeling for more content?” I thought of manga that I love very much call Skip Beat. The main character when though a lot of heartbreak and she was an actress in show biz. She used the painful feeling to remember what her face expression look like for acting. She used the hard times toward her professions.

I guess you could say I am writing this to talk myself out of allowing my feeling control my actions. I am not giving up.

If you would like to read Nocturnal Orphan, here is a link for you.

How to Build your Own Gaming PC, The starting point.

In this video, I go over why I am building my own gaming PC. And this is my starting point. I will be making a series of video covering my process.

What Is Comicsgate?

You may have heard the term comicsgate which is thought to come from gamergate. However, it have another meaning. Check out the video below.

The most important thing to remember is to never give up on your dreams. If you want to create comics than you should do that. Just know like anything, it take work to be successful. And don’t let a few people on social media determine what path you take. That is your choice alone.

How to Choose between Self Publishing or Publisher Company?

So recent I have choice to pull out of Zazu Zine + Comix Publisher in Oct 2019. This was not an easy decision to come up with, however, it did not sound good for my business. From the beginning, I kept hearing that we will not talk about sponsorship, distribution, and marketing until after we get comic done. As we where getting closer to the deadline for the submitting comic, we start to discuss sponsorship, distribution, and marketing a little.

The conclusion with sponsorship was that it was going to pay for start up cost of publishing and first round of prints of comic. I asked will we have continuously revenue coming in to pay for re-stock and marketing because if we divide up the revenue from sales to all artists, and publisher individual, than where will the money come for paying for re-stock and marketing? However, will you start up a company on the first project without investing money from product to keep it up? The answer I got was we will deal with it when we get there. That answer sound too much like “Lets wing it.” The publisher say that she will pull money from her other business to pay for marketing and more re-stock.

So I made the decision to pull out because I don’t think this will be any different than publishing myself. Yes, I would not pay for the cost of publisher if I do that, however, I would we be doing more work to promote this publisher and not get much out of it. I believe a company need to invest in it self from the very beginning or it will not be able stand on it own very long. I also believe that many investor would not support a company that is not willing to create it own revenue coming in to keep it running.

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I have deciding to look into self publisher or another publisher company. I am working on writing out the first five chapter of Angie’s Adventures. My plan is to still plan for the release in Oct for Chapter 1. I will be looking at digital comics as well. I am hoping that I could get three Chapter done by Jan 2020. For I have plans to go to Mars Con Jan 2020 in Williamsburg, VA.

I would like to hear your thoughts on self publisher vs publisher company. I know there is more work and investing more money when it come to self publisher. However, I feel it is do able and I have the skills to market myself. Also, I would like to hear your thoughts on how long is a series you enjoy reading. I am looking into making Angie’s Adventure into a long series or break it up in parts. I am also thinking about making one shot comics for individual characters such as Fredrick and Alphonse background and Two-bit background. Fredrick and Alphonse story will be very different from Two-bit story. One will be very serious and the other will be more humor. One story will be around tragic and revenge while the other story will be around heart break and money.

The good news out of all of this, I will be bringing more content to the viewer than what I had plan previous. Which Chapter 1, I will be able to add more papers to it than what I original plan under ZAZU.

How To Design and Sell Your T-Shirt, Printful Make it Easy

Here is a video that I have made of my tips for design and sell your t-shirt using Printful. Printful is very easy to used and the design on the T-shirt and other items are very high quality.