Category: Depression

We Live in a Society….

I have to say I was wow… when I say the movie Joker. It left me speechless. At first it was very daunting because it felt like a prediction. I have been following the “woke” and “metoo” movements. It felt like the Joker was the spark that set off chaos. You could tell thought out the whole move that there was problems with society and it could be set off into chaos with just one little blow.

We live in a society that is very simpler to what is in the movie. Just yesterday I heard of a story where a 23 year old woman is fighting for her right to die because her mental health is so bad and she cannot handle the pain from crippling from her period. We are having more young people who are not able to handle the normal cruel world when they want to give up on living. Children are being raise being protection from the cruel world to the point, they are not prepare for how cruel it really is.

“We live in a society…

Years ago I heard of a story when 2 out 3 people deal with depression or some type of anxiety. And the media does not help with this, it make things worst with fake stories and dividing whole groups of people from others. Now we have more people believes things such as the moon landing was not real but fake. Because if you keep putting out fakes stories than people will start believing rumors and what is on the internet forms.

“We live in a society…

Also, if we think about how the labors workforce are being treating than you would see more problems. They are starting to be treating less than human. Many company human resources departments are a joke. I don’t think telling people to treat each other nicer is going to fix that. I think the problem is many people are not made for the regular workforce such as me. I am lot happier now because I am working for myself and controlling my own future.

We live in a society…

However, it is very hard to start a business when your only way of getting your name out is social media. Social media is turning more pro corporation which is making it hard for small time business owners. In fact, I have been shadow ban on Facebook and Twitter. They are shared my content less and less. I know I am not the only one having this problem, it is starting to be notice by the media. There are expect who came out and say that it is a real problem.

“We live in a society…

And if that was not bad. There is talk about a civil war may happen to the US. The extreme left Democrats in Congress are fighting with the Trumps Federal agencies over border security concerns. The last year, the Democrats have say some crazy things and the media only report “Orange Man Bad.” Like we live in some stone age period where intelligent is left out.

“We live in a society…

Oh, and the trade war with China is getting worst. It is possible that China have their hand in our money too and may have control over a US recession.

“We live in a society…

I think our biggest problem is mental health because if we don’t have adults with mental toughness than many will not be able to deal with the troubles that may come our way in the future. I believe that movie may end up being a wake up call for many. I just hope that it would do that because if we cannot handle failing a test or rejection than we are in trouble if our peaceful times come to an end.

Holiday Depression

Around the holiday I feel sad so I can only paint something dark. This painting is a reflection of how I feel around this time. Holiday was not always a depression time for me. Once I was very happy and celebrate the holidays with my family. However, I no longer have family to celebrate the holiday with so holidays only bring pain to my heart.

This painting is a reflection of the pain of depression and anxiety I feel. The truth be told I am not the only one who deal with depression. Two out of five people have some form of depression and/or anxiety. My depression and anxiety is not what it use to be. I had counselor and have people who support me. I still have time when that pain will come to the surface but that is only normal with the life I have experience. I have learn overtime how to overcome depression and anxiety which my art help with that. I am able to express what I am feeling in a painting and take a step back to reflect and say to myself that it is okay to feel this way. The moment we accept that how we are feeling we can come to terms and move on from that moment.

My own depression is around my divorce. I was marry for 11 years and at the time of separation. I was having trouble with depression and anxiety. My ex-husband took advance of my depression and got the courts to take my children from me. He also twist the stories around and had my parents and sibling rejection me during the worst part of my life. The people I believe that was my friends in the church abandon me. I found myself very much alone and rebuilding my life on my own.If it have not been for me being a veteran and veteran hospital in Richmond, VA helping me during that dark side of my life. I don’t know where I would have end up. My love for anime, hiking, and painting all help. I watch anime that encourage me to not give up. I went hiking to get quiet and to cry in peace. And I painting things that I love such as views from my hiking trips, my kids, and anime fan art of course. I explored new hobbies and new communities. Basically I went soul searching in my own nerd way.

I believe as a society we need to education ourselves in mental health a whole lot more than we have. These days I heard more conversation about mental health such as being rejection from church group because they are a little different from the rest of the church, schools not understand trust issue between students and teacher in early age by doing a random shooting drill without letting the parents know, and human resource in corporation not understand micro manager can be harassment coming from supervisor because it say to the employee that you don’t true me to do my job.

First we need to understand what mental health is and what may cause a person to feel depress. Mental health is define as a person’s condition with regard to their psychological and emotional well-being. It affects how we think, feel, and act. If we look for keys words then it would be easier to understand that situation can cause someone to feel depression. Keywords such as rejection, scary, hurt, betray, distrust, being accused, and etc. If we heard these words in how a person feel or think it, it could reflection how they view the situation. However, it is not the words along that does it, it is the love they shared with the people who hurt them behind the words. It may mean they trust them first and may have thought they would never hurt me to this extent.

I think the final step would be for us to have more of a open conversation about our feeling and how our actions effects these feeling we are having. This does not just apply to individual but to companies, churches, schools, and government. All of these organizational are run by people so mental health should always be an important part in their policy.